Amnesia – 5SOS

I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted
I thought about our last kiss, how it felt the way you tasted
And even though your friends tell me you’re doing fine

Are you somewhere feeling lonely even though he’s right beside you?
When he says those words that hurt you, do you read the ones I wrote you?

Sometimes I start to wonder, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?

‘Cause I’m not fine at all

I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn’t need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

‘Cause I’m not fine at all

The pictures that you sent me they’re still living in my phone
I’ll admit I like to see them, I’ll admit I feel alone
And all my friends keep asking why I’m not around

It hurts to know you’re happy, yeah, it hurts that you’ve moved on
It’s hard to hear your name when I haven’t seen you in so long

It’s like we never happened, was it just a lie?
If what we had was real, how could you be fine?

‘Cause I’m not fine at all

I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn’t need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

If today I woke up with you right beside me
Like all of this was just some twisted dream
I’d hold you closer than I ever did before
And you’d never slip away
And you’d never hear me say

I remember the day you told me you were leaving
I remember the make-up running down your face
And the dreams you left behind you didn’t need them
Like every single wish we ever made
I wish that I could wake up with amnesia
And forget about the stupid little things
Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you
And the memories I never can escape

‘Cause I’m not fine at all
No, I’m really not fine at all
Tell me this is just a dream
‘Cause I’m really not fine at all

 


Kept this song on replay when I was working overtime this evening.

I count myself lucky to never have felt this way before. Seeing someone’s shadows at places both of you went before, being left behind when the other person has moved on, it was as though the whole thing didn’t happened at all.

Ray and I came close to breaking up for I think once or twice. And at that point of time I couldn’t stop crying. I imagined how it would be like to be without him and it made me cry even harder. Imagine going to the places we went before and getting reminded of him really just kills anyone who’s going through this. (what a depressing 2 years 8 months post haha.)

 


Stay strong, stay brave, stay happy, stay positive. Cause at this point of time you’re stronger than any one of us ❤ and we seriously believe that you’ll be able to walk out of it. We’ll always be around to support you.

 


I’m really really glad and thankful that we’re still together despite our differences. I love how you’re ready to forgive me and take me back even though I did something wrong and made you angry. I love how we are willing to let go of our pride at times and just apologize because we value our relationship more than our ego. I love you. 🙂 I want us to last throughout. ❤

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