I don’t think I have the strength to carry myself forward anymore. Can I put an end to this.
Maybe I just can’t do this anymore. I’ve been strong for so long. Maybe I’ve reached my limit. Can I wallow in self pity now?
For one reason or another, you’re both standing there in front of each other and there’s no way really to move because no matter what step you take it will never be one together.
Sometimes love just isn’t enough to make something work.
So you painfully walk away looking over your shoulder one or more times. You begin to question love all but entirely. You question yourself and your judgment. You wonder why can’t it be so simple? And you’re left with no other choice but to move on.
Time moves on and the ache in your heart begins to fade away. But the honest truth about loving someone you can’t be with is no matter how long you spend apart and grow on your own, those feelings don’t just go away.
Currently going through a whirlwind of emotions. From watching lalaland alone, from reading me before you, from knowing that my colleagues are leaving one by one… I don’t know how to deal with this.
Well, seems like the beginning of 2017 ain’t going too well. Having a hard time returning to reality from the dream trip that has just finished. And it feels like the theme that I have been getting in touch with all surrounded trying and doing something without being fearful.
Lalaland told me that if you persist long enough and try hard enough, you’ll be able to achieve your dreams. But what’s my dream? I also got the message that some people, you are meant to fall in love with but are not meant to together. Me before you told me that I need to widen my horizons, to be fearless in seeking new experiences, to live a life without regretting that you have not lived.
Colleagues leaving one by one, makes me feel like I am being left behind, like there is nothing to look forward to anymore. Work has been difficult, been sighing at work way too much, buried under so many tasks I have listed on my to-do list, never being able to clear them all. I think it’s about time, I’ve had enough. I’ll weigh the pros and cons and I will make a plan to leave soon too. I will.