Feb 2016, it has been about 1 year and 7 months. So many things changed yet some still stayed the same. We grew apart in distance, chasing after our individual goals and dreams. Our paths diverged and similarities grew lesser, conversations shorter. To be honest to myself, I still think about it these days. Thought about what could have been, thought about my decision, thought about how things would be like in future. But do I miss the idea of you, or the you at the present? Memories of us are getting less vivid, and I struggle to remember what we have been through. I dare not open pictures of us from the past because I know what I would be getting myself into. It would just be a downward spiral and I may never get out of it. I know that my heart would hurt and tears would roll. In fact it does even as I am typing this. A simple picture like this made me think about what we used to be, and how right it was. And then memories start flooding back, things we talked about, things we used to quarrel about, and things that hold us together. I do not wish for the memories to be forgotten. I just wish that they would hurt lesser. It has been 1 years and 7 months. When will I heal and be able to move on?